Firsts, firsts, firsts!
I love thinking about all the firsts that I have had with John so far, because they give me all sorts of butterflies in my tummy, haha.
Our first time meeting online, our first voice chat, our first video chat, our first time meeting for real, first night together, first date… Heck, even our first time grocery shopping together! (Who knew that could be exciting?) The list goes on. All of them just felt so right and so natural. I believe it’s what helped us realize how great we were for each other, how compatible we were.
When I had first started seeing John around on Gaia, I really didn’t pay much attention to him. Mostly because our RP characters never interacted, so there was never a need to… Haha. My first impression was that he was just some guy who thought his character was almighty, never posted much and probably just one of those “I’m so cool” guys. I don’t know why, but that was just my first impression. But that obviously changed when him and I started talking privately on Skype. I learned a lot more about him and how much of an amazing person he is.
This, of course, brought about our first Skype call. To be completely honest, I really don’t even know how it got brought up… I think we were maybe going to watch a movie together? I was kind of nervous though. But definitely not as nervous as when we first video called. Funny thing though? I’m preeeeeeetty sure that when we first video called, I was in my pajamas, lol! Cause I’m like… Always in my pajamas at home… Shhhhh.
Anyways, I was super nervous about the video call. I was adjusting all the angles and stuff so it would look right. Even the lighting I had to fix as well until I was satisfied. Then even during the call, I had to make sure I was sitting certain ways otherwise I didn’t like the way I looked, lmao! And of course the first thing he asked? “Hey, stand next to your door, I want to see how short you are!” Charming, no? Hahaha, it definitely made me laugh though.
Of course, this eventually turned into our first time actually meeting in person. We had been going through a bit of a rough time. Then, I literally woke up one morning and I knew I just had to meet him. I couldn’t wait any longer. I don’t even know how to explain the feeling, but it was just this intense feeling that it was something that I needed to do. So, I asked John and he agreed. That same day, I booked my flight to see him on my birthday! Meeting him in person was probably the greatest experience of my life. I felt so comfortable with him, like I had been with him my whole life. I think for most of the time, my brain was having a hard time processing that I was actually there with him, haha. It definitely boosted our relationship a whole lot.
I will never forget the first night we spent together. Of course, I was so nervous at first that I was shaking, it even scared him a bit when he noticed. I kinda just brushed it off as something that just happens though… Totally just shake like that for no reason!
I had made a vow to myself to make no first moves, because he had been telling me that he wasn’t sure how things would go, since any other time he had met someone, it had turned out bad. But luckily for me, I had nothing to worry about.
I got what I wished for.
As we were laying in bed together, trying to fall asleep, he told me to move closer to him and then wrapped his arms around me when I did. He held me, kissed my forehead and then shyly kissed me on the lips.
My heart felt like it was going to burst.
All of these memories are so important to me and I will never forget them.
After all, they are what ignited the flame. ♥